Let me start this by saying that boys suck... I have definitely come to the conclusion that I need to meet a MAN, someone with a real job who is looking to add a little something special to his life and can appreciate my opinions and ideals even if he can't agree with all of them, as opposed to a jerkface loser who has no clue about what his true values or morals are and where he is going and just wants to have fun until he gets there.
These pictures and the following video of the Houston Zoo are all that remain of my little Christmas trip (despite the saddness that accompanies my return from the trip I have to say that my photog skills are increasing with use...I love the one of the goats and the one of of the MeerKat...I have a crappy camera and despite this, I think I did pretty well for myself)
Anywhooooo...I went half expecting nothing and half expecting something extraordinary, only to come home confused and later to have my heart stomped on... I guess one thing that I have learned more than anything is that I try too hard to focus on the positive aspects of people rather than allow myself to focus on their shortcomings, it is one of my drawbacks because 5 times out of 10 it gets me hurt, I must admit; however, it is one aspect of me that I wouldn't change....yes, it gets me into trouble, but there have been so many times where it has led me to meet people who have changed my life for the better. I wouldn't give up all people that I've been able to love and change and have allowed to change me to undo the pain and heartbreak caused by any of the people thatI dated and chose to trust with my heart, because the relationships I have with those people are too amazing to lose and the lessons they've taught me about life, redemption, and love are lessons that are too precious to ever lose sight of. Why would I want to give up such golden opportunities in the future?
However, having said this, watch this video of a sweet little mole rat at the Houston Zoo to see what I compare dating to..just watch it and you will understand...
My life must be the most watched daytime drama on the other side, just when I get settled and believe that something huge is going to happen God pulls a "dance monkey dance" moment on me and I am back to where I began. I guess, other than the fact that I need to only date real men, I learned a lot about myself and where I am supposed to be. I get so caught up sometimes in the fact that I am not married...I never thought I would get to this point in my life and not be...in fact, my high school friends would probably tell you that they half expected me to be living out my perfect 50's housewife existence by now...but then I think about things, really think...I think about all the amazing things I've done with my life, things I never would have been able to do with kids and a husband....: I've been to Europe, I've traveled all over the United States...I've had the opportunity to sing in places that many people would only dream of, I've met amazing and interesting people like the great Eph Ehly and the incomparable Weston Noble...
My life must be the most watched daytime drama on the other side, just when I get settled and believe that something huge is going to happen God pulls a "dance monkey dance" moment on me and I am back to where I began. I guess, other than the fact that I need to only date real men, I learned a lot about myself and where I am supposed to be. I get so caught up sometimes in the fact that I am not married...I never thought I would get to this point in my life and not be...in fact, my high school friends would probably tell you that they half expected me to be living out my perfect 50's housewife existence by now...but then I think about things, really think...I think about all the amazing things I've done with my life, things I never would have been able to do with kids and a husband....: I've been to Europe, I've traveled all over the United States...I've had the opportunity to sing in places that many people would only dream of, I've met amazing and interesting people like the great Eph Ehly and the incomparable Weston Noble...
I was set apart for my new calling today in church (ward chorister, music chair, and choir director, on top of Relief Society Accompanist...ahhh the joys of a Singles Ward) and Brother Atkins said some things in the blessing that confirmed what I had been thinking...the talents and abilities that I have are a gift I've had since before I started my mortal existence...who am I to deny God whatever of my abilities he needs to accomplish the greater good? Yes, it would be nice to have someone to come home to at the end of the day, someone to support me and be excited for me when something really amazing happens, but it isn't absolutely necessary or the best time for me to have that blessing at this juncture in my life...
Which moves me on to the topic of today...holding one of my favorite callings on the planet...being Aunt B.
Let me preface this by saying, I LOVE being an aunt. I love spoiling my nieces and nephews, I love watching them and teaching them and helping them grow. I have to admit that when they are around sometimes I get a little sad because I wish that I had my own little ones to share with and to nuture, however, it is always nice to be needed and to be able to use my 1950's housewife skills for a good cause, and the following event was a fabulous cause for a diva of my status!
January 13, 2008 was Macee's fourth birthday. I must admit that I needed the distraction that helping with a birthday party afforded due to the constant pang of break up woe that I was experiencing, if I wasn't crying I was trying to find things to keep my mind off of it so that I wouldn't cry. I was fortunate enough to be called upon to decorate a cake and help put together the game "Pin the lips on the Frog" (It was a princess themed party for all those of you who are wondering, hence pinning lips on the "frog prince") All of Macee's cousins came and we all dressed up. Kiersten and I decided to go as beauty queen princesses. I wish I had pics of us, because it was too cute. I was Little Miss Sunshine and She was Little Miss Trouble( we found some vintage looking T-shirts that had the titles on them they were fun and on sale for like 5 bucks!).... The kids all had a great time and the cake was a huge success. Thank heavens for friends like Ashley and Cameron High, who were kind enough to bring over their jump-o-line after the Madd Kidz Jumpster went to meet its maker....
Everyone was adorable, especially Macee...who looked like a real little princess...I must say that this pic is one of my favorites of her. I think I'm going to get it framed its so great...that kid is going to be a model, I swear, she is always ready for a camera...she was blessed with one of my abilities...a sixth camera sense...we always know when there is one around, a candid pic of me (or her) is a rare event indeed.
January 13, 2008 was Macee's fourth birthday. I must admit that I needed the distraction that helping with a birthday party afforded due to the constant pang of break up woe that I was experiencing, if I wasn't crying I was trying to find things to keep my mind off of it so that I wouldn't cry. I was fortunate enough to be called upon to decorate a cake and help put together the game "Pin the lips on the Frog" (It was a princess themed party for all those of you who are wondering, hence pinning lips on the "frog prince") All of Macee's cousins came and we all dressed up. Kiersten and I decided to go as beauty queen princesses. I wish I had pics of us, because it was too cute. I was Little Miss Sunshine and She was Little Miss Trouble( we found some vintage looking T-shirts that had the titles on them they were fun and on sale for like 5 bucks!).... The kids all had a great time and the cake was a huge success. Thank heavens for friends like Ashley and Cameron High, who were kind enough to bring over their jump-o-line after the Madd Kidz Jumpster went to meet its maker....
Everyone was adorable, especially Macee...who looked like a real little princess...I must say that this pic is one of my favorites of her. I think I'm going to get it framed its so great...that kid is going to be a model, I swear, she is always ready for a camera...she was blessed with one of my abilities...a sixth camera sense...we always know when there is one around, a candid pic of me (or her) is a rare event indeed.
I took Macee back to my parent's house and did her hair and makeup and then she spent the rest of the day messing it up while she jumped in the jump-o-line and played with her cousins making princess and prince crowns. She opened gifts and about had a heart attack when she opened all of the fabulous goodies...new makeup, new dress up clothes, barbies...she is such a girl, I LOVE IT! Then again, I don't know what Amber would do if she had a tomboy...despite all the headaches of being a mother to a girlie girl there are definite pluses...like built in guaranteed fun times playing dress up or having a tea party...things that I hope to do someday if I am fortunate enough to be blessed with a daughter as awesome as Macee.
Well, enjoy the pics of the party! And in our next installment I will share with you my impressions upon entering the Rexburg Temple for the open house (its a little out of order because Macee's birthday was AFTER we went to the open house, but I think that blog may be too different to group with this one and I may have an announcement to make within that blog...Check back around Wednesday or Thursday!)
Hugs and loves to you all,
Aunt B. out!
3 comments:
I love the pix! By the way you owe me all of these pix plus some my back up camera woman. We miss you!!!!
Oh my soul, you make me laugh. I can't even handle it. You have gone through a lot these last few months and have come through with flying colors. I promise that Mr. Right is still waiting for you. You always have to sort through a couple jerks before you find him. I promise it is so worth it. I mean seriously, have you you see my hottie of a husband!! He is a catch. Believe me I dated some scum-bags before I snatched him up. Have faith...you deserve the best and that is what you will receive.
A wise person once said something to the effect of this: The wrong ones are the best ones to lead you to the right one. Don't worry life isn't over just yet. Some day the Diva's prince will come.
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